Sunday, August 25, 2013


Let's get straight to the point, shall we?

We're expecting a baby, due to join our family next February! But that's probably old news now to any blog readers there may be. We are so excited! And seriously so grateful for the opportunity that will soon be ours to become parents. Even to be at this point, it feels like such a privilege and we don't ever want to take it for granted. 

In all honesty, it's been a really tough summer. I think it's terribly unfortunate that first trimester is hush hush. I totally get why that is, and some people choose to share their happy news broadly much earlier than we did, but I was definitely on board with waiting to announce. It just turned out to be terribly lonesome. I had pretty awful nausea all day every day for many weeks. Even now my stomach feels especially testy, but I am doing so, so much better. But it was during that time that I really felt like I could have used more support, and would have loved to have talked to more people about what I was going through. Now that I have, I realize more and more people went through exactly what I did. It'd be nice if we could support each other better during the rough beginning.

Besides that, because we didn't talk about it with the people around us (except our immediate families) for a while, there was much less focus on the happiness and excitement of the coming baby than there is now. I expect that will only increase as my belly gets bigger (when even every single stranger will decide to talk to me about it, touch my belly, etc.).

Those months were tough, but the very best part was the early ultrasound. We saw that tiny little heart beating like crazy. We saw our baby, at 9 tiny weeks gestation, wiggle around. There was nothing like it. And that's what I had to keep going back to in my mind when I felt such frustration about being so sick.

I started my new job, my first job as a PA, 2 weeks ago. I was so nervous about having that conversation, you know, that I'm having a baby in 6 months, but it went amazingly well. They were so unbelievably supportive. I'm not sure what's going to go down after the baby comes, but I know Heavenly Father had a major role in me getting into this particular job and the timing of everything, so I'm really grateful. We'll see how things go!

When I was so sick I couldn't wait until this part would be over and I'd be showing and everybody could know that I'm pregnant, as opposed to looking completely normal yet feeling so miserable. I think it was literally the weekend before I started work that I decided I might actually be starting to have a bump that I could notice. And sure enough, every day that week when I would put on my dress pants that I hadn't worn all summer, I'd find them just a bit too tight. It turns out it's kind of stressful! I'm barely even showing so I feel crazy to buy maternity clothes, but I'm really having major trouble with the clothes I currently own. It's an interesting phenomenon to have my body change so much so quickly, and this is just the beginning.

We've been excited to become parents for a long time, but that excitement seems to grow daily nowadays. Can't wait for every change and every step along the way!